“You'll always be a part of me and I'm a part of you indefinitely”

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Darlin cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time cant erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Darlin cause you'll always be my baby

Sigh. Cali was soooo much fun and Ms. Masalas wedding was absolutely breathtaking! This was my first ever outdoor Indian wedding and the diamond bar hills provided the perfect backdrop to the beautiful occasion. Ms.Pai and my dance turned out well and most importantly the bride was happy :o) Bhatji had an extremely rough time attending 8 hours of class and then flying 6 hours to LA and then driving an her hour to get to our hotel by 2 AM but I was happy that he was able to make it. He got to meet more of my konk friends and family. In the end a good time was had by all.

Start rant-> I am alone again. I miss Bhatji very much and I realize how I hate being alone for long periods of time. The only positive is that he will be home every weekend :o) I also think its hitting me that I do not get to spend time with a set group of friends. It feels like work…. calling people and setting something up. It’s weird for me to feel this way. I have always been a very social person…I love to talk and meet new people but lately (especially since I got hitched) it feels like it consumes too much of my energy. I try to be friendly and go out of my way to do nice things or to set up get-togethers but I feel like people don’t reciprocate or take advantage of my time and niceness. For once I want to meet people that are not out to make friends in quantity but in quality. My friends and Bhatji’s friends are not only fun to be around but put in efforts to come down and see us and plan things just like we would include them in ours; Too bad that none of them live locally. I would love to have some local friends who I can call to go catch a movie with or to go shopping with. Maybe I have been watching too much “Friends” to think a group like that actually exist post college life. I know I can meet people, that’s not my problem…I would like to know how to find the ones that share similar interests with me. I have been giving way too much time to the non receptive folks so maybe I just need to get out there and make efforts with newer people and see where it takes me. Currently I feel like I am in high school all over again. Which lunch table do I belong to? <-End rant.

On a non rant topic….I know I haven’t cooked in ages, it’s all this traveling I have been doing lately. Also since I am alone at home now I do not have the same motivation I did when I have to go home to feed Bhatji. However, I should really make simple meals for just myself. The weather is amazing and I plan to eat out on my balcony more often so I will be back with more recipes to share. Speaking of which, I am having my lil Sumi stay over for an authentic Mallu meal and some QT :o)


Anonymous said...

uhmm this is why i keep telling you to move to NYC! the party's over here!!!!! =) also now that i'm going to be unemployed soon, I can come stay with you & mom/dad for a week or so

Esha said...

Ooh I know just what you mean about having to go out of your way and not having it reciprocated. I'm also a very outgoing person and extremely open to meeting anyone new but it feels like it's so fruitless to do so when others don't make the effort. I think that's why I love NYC so much. Because there's always a way to meet new people who are just as outgoing.

Once I move to DC we should catch a movie and dinner often and form our very own Konkani "friends" group. Haha. :)

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